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It's half past 5 and I just got home from school. Fridays suck that way.

It's raining outside. That's good, hopefully it will wash this bloody snow away, I'm so fed up with it, I just wanna be sick all over it!

My sister is unfortunately coming home in a few hours, it's been so nice having her gone. I wish she could stay away for another 3 lifetimes or so. She is just horrible.

So far today I've only had 2/3 of an apple and I feel awesome. Everybody was eating candy today, there was chocolate (!!) everywhere and they all offered me some. Linnea held a piece in front of my face and made me smell it. She was talking about the amazing taste of it and all that. I just sat there and changed her words in my head. Instead of hearing "amazing taste of strawberry and lemon" and "oh that perfect sweetness combined with the sour" I made myself hear "all these calories that will run straight to your thighs" and "enjoy it and get FAT". I must say it worked, because I did not want the candy at all and they all gave up on trying to make me.

My friend Eva is getting really annoying. She's always telling me to eat. Every time I shiver from the cold she tells me it's because I don't eat and that I need to fatten up. I'm 107 lbs for gods sake, I do NOT need to fatten up! I wish she could just shut the hell up for once! Don't get me wrong, she's really nice and all, except for when it comes to this. Then I just wanna kill her!

xoxo