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Okay so the last days have been hard... I've not binged nor purged at all, but I have been forced to eat 'normally' which has been really difficult, and then not being able to purge it up. It's like I have to fight for it not to come up by itself. It's like my body is rejecting food. Well it allows it in, but then it just wants it out again.

Tomorrow I'm seeing the other Swedish ED girls, I really hope it goes fine.

But then tomorrow night my classmates are coming over for a movie night. I fear a binge. And no opportunity to purge. Ugh.