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Dont have time for reasons now, I'm in malta and I'll catch up on them when I get home.
Anywho, I'm deff thinner now than I was when I left sweden, so thats all good. There/s a lot of party and little food. Im happy. Cant write much more now. Sorry.
xoxo

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13. Because fat people are disgusting

It's 4:23 AM and I can't sleep. I'm too excited about going to Malta today, plane lifts in 10½ hours, omgomgomfg. I'm so stoked! And I'm hungry. Haven't eaten properly since Thursday, today it's Sunday. So all I've eaten since then is two small sandwiches yesterday. I feel awesome though. I need to be skinny when I'm gonna spend 11 days on the beach and in the clubs.

I am now 113 pounds, so I am losing, and I want to lose 9 more pounds before school starts on August 20. probably not gonna happen, but you can always hope eh?

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12. Because I want people to see the real me, and not the fat hiding it.

So today I've had two small sandwiches, water, green tea and coca cola zero. It's 5:45 PM.

Tomorrow I'm off to Malta with my friend Alexx for 11 days. We're gonna party. A lot. My plan is to eat nothing but dinner everyday, which will probably be noodles, so that's okay. I can't fast completely because I hate drinking on an empty stomach. And I'll probably end up purging most of the nights to get rid of some of the calories from the alcohol, and prevent hangovers.

Now I'm off to make and throw away dinner. Bye.

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I did it. I fasted all day. I feel awesome! But I must admit my head is spinning and my body is weak. I biked like less 700 metres or something and I got blood taste in my mouth. I'm on top of the world! I'm getting on the scale tomorrow morning and I better be lighter, at least a little.

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It's 7:35 PM and I still haven't eaten. I am starving but I will successfully fast today. I've told my sister I'm eating with my friend and I've told my friend I'm eating with my sister. Easy queasy! And I'm down 1½ pounds, so I'm "only" 114½ now.

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10. Because you can't be too skinny, only too fat.

11. To prove that I can be good enough.

Yesterday started out okay, I had no breakfast, then Thai for lunch and lettuce for dinner. But then I binged/purged. Damnit.

Today I've had nothing so far and it's 1:37 PM. Feels good. I hope I can keep it that was. Probably can't though. But I'll do my best.

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9. Because I want people to turn their heads in jealousy!

Current time: 1:01 PM

Foods I've had: None

hope today will be good.